You guys, I’m doomed.
The little voice in my head is already convincing me I’m not good enough for this guy. She’s putting ideas in my head that he is talking to someone else, or isn’t that into me or I don’t even know…
And today, that damn bitch convinced me to stay in bed until 11 a.m. thus accomplishing NOTHING — not even the gym — before work at 12:30 p.m.
I sent him yet another nagging text message last night to ask where the fuck the money was. And to tell him my name on my bank account has been changed back to my maiden name. I only told him this because he has my bank look up my account by my name.
“That’s good, are you happy about it?”
Um, excuse me?
Yes, I’m just delighted that I had the “privilege” of marrying you and being your wife for eight months, spending $15,000 on a wedding and changing my name all so you could throw it all away for that fucking whore Hillary.
Yes, I’m happy to not have to look at your stupid name on my bank account.
Seriously what the fuck dude?
I saw the text at 3 a.m. I didn’t write back, but the thought of him, the text, the question was enough to keep me up for a few hours. So maybe it’s OK I slept till 11 this morning.
Back to Coach. We saw each other four days in a row. One day was just lunch, another was a few hours on the beach with a bottle of wine to watch the meteor shower. (Sound familiar? I did the same thing with his roommate, Fisherman. God, what am I doing with my life??)
I like Coach a lot, but I’ve got this nagging voice that this is all going to blow up in my face and I am going to be alone. Forever.
He leaves town for almost three weeks on Thursday. So only time will tell what happens between us.
I’ve got some hope. I mentioned something about my best friend and he said “I want to be your best friend…” Cue the awwwwws (or cue the get your sneakers and RUN).
I won’t be seeing Mrs. Therapy until Jan. 5 so I am on my own to deal with all of this crap. What the hell? She’s off till Jan. 5? It’s like she’s human too with family or something. SMH
Thank goodness I have you guys!